中英演講稿：
Good afternoon, everyone！
First let me share a piece of music wuth you. I know it's terrible, because I played it.
And I am sorry it's not the worst one,I still got something to show you.
Don't laugh, it's an entire story.
大家下午好！
首先請允許我為大家放一段音樂。我知道彈得很不好，因為那是我彈的。
很抱歉這還不是本場最差。我還要給大家看另外一個東西。
不要笑，這些畫面描述了一個完整的故事。
If you really want to understand what is it talking about. You can check my Weibo later.
This picture I painted last year.I have another one to show you this is much better.
But this picture I painted 20 years ago.I know you might have a question. How it's getting worse?
And I also understand that most of your comclusion must be: out of imagination.
如果你們真的想知道里面講的內容,你們待會兒可以去看一下我的微博。這一幅畫是我去年畫的。
我還有另外一幅作品比這個要好很多，但這一幅是我20年前畫的，你們一定想問，怎麼越畫越差了？
我猜你們的結論一定是：我越來越缺乏想象力了
But how it happened? I think it's because I became an adult. Since we became adults. We start being afraid of making mistakes. We choose to be the best or nothing. So we do not dare to try any mistakes.
It seems that we trapped ourselves in the overprotective world. And sine then we started to lose a lot of abilites like imagination and creativity.
那這是為什麼呢？我想這是因為我長大了。長大看以後，我們開始變得害怕犯錯了。我們要麼不做，要麼就做最好的。所以總是嘗試著不去犯錯，我們似乎將自己困在一個保護過度的世界中，於是乎我們漸漸失去了想象力與創造力。
What is the strategy? For me I have a special one.(it) is a positive pessimist. Let me explain the concept first. To be a pessimist means you get low expectation from yourself.
And you prepared to lose, and what about being positive. It is easy to understand， it means you make best efforts on everything. And you have a strong willing of winning the game. But if you combine these concepts together it seems like a paradox. Yes I think so but I also think It is the way the world is born to be.
怎麼辦呢？對於我來說答案就是要做一個積極的悲觀主義者。讓我來解釋一下。做一個悲觀主義者意味著你放低對自己的要求，接受可能會失敗的事實，那麼積極又意味著什麼？其實很簡單，就是你拼盡全力要去贏得遊戲。把這兩個觀念放在一起似乎有一些矛盾。我也同意，但是我的認為這就是世界本來的樣子。
And it really works in the reality, we can always find something around us. They have totally opposite two sides. But they combine together and work well together. So how to be a positive pessimist.
Let me share some experiences with you. I know I'm not old emough to tell stories. But these stories are really meant to me, the first one back to 2012.
就是這樣，我們總能在生活中找到完全對立的事物，但是它們很好地共同存在一起。那麼如何做一個積極地悲觀主義者呢？我來分享一些我的經歷吧。或許我還沒有老到可以大談自己的經歷，但是這些故事對於我個人而言非常寶貴，第一個故事發生在2012年
It's the first time I became a TV series producer. But as you know, I am an actrjie guoess and singer.
But work as a producer was totally unfamiliar for me. So you remember first I have to be pessimist.
I had to imagine what will be the worst consequence. I think the worst result must be no one wouidbuy is. And I will lose both time and money. And the whole investment equal to the revenue I earn by acting for the past few years. And what about the whole market.
我第一次成為了一名電視製片人，但是正如你們所知道的我是一名演員和歌手。製片人的角色我還很不熟悉，所以請記住，我首先得是一個悲觀主義者，我要去設想最壞的結果。最壞或許沒有人願意花錢去買它了吧。而我所有的花費時間都付諸東流，這項投資金額大概相當於我這幾年演藝生涯賺到的錢的總和。
In China only 20% of TV series can finally sold and broadcast on TV. What about the rest 80%.
In the past, they just change into a pipe of tapes. Now even worse, we just only datas left.
So I asked myself several times "Can you really accept the worst consequence"? I think yes, at least I could try so I started shooting.
電視市場是怎樣的呢？在國內只有20%的電視劇能成功賣出去並在電視臺播放。剩下的80%呢？
過去製作團隊只剩下了一堆錄像帶，現在情況更糟，我們只能剩下（硬盤裡的）一堆數據，所以我不斷問自己“你到底能不能接受這個最壞的結果”？我的答案是肯定的，至少我能試一下所以我們開始了拍攝。
Remember, next step, I have to be positive. Because I am a huge digital fan so I decided to use some high techniques in my TV series. I focused on 4K resolution. What 4K is let me explain.
Usually you see a film on the screen in a movie theatre the size is 2K. What 4K means is 4 times larger than 2K. And it also means 50mb per frame.
接下來，還記得嗎我要做的就是要保持積極心態。因為我是一個數字產品迷所以我決定要在自己的電視中採用高科技，我專注在實現4K分辨率，我來解釋一下這是一個什麼概念。通常我們在電影院屏幕上看到的電影分辨率是2K，而4K是2K的四倍分辨，當然這也意味著文每幀都有50MB大小。
You might still be a little bit confused. It's OK. Don't worry, you just have to remember it was a huge obstacle. In front of all the TV series group in China.Because before us, only a few groups tries to 4K resolution.They input 4K but no one reall tired output 4K productions.
如果你還有一點迷糊的話，沒關係，你只需要記住這是在中國電視界的一個巨大的挑戰。在我們之前只有很少一部分人嘗試過4K分辨率，他們做到了4K輸入但並不是輸出。
Because it was really hard.Director Zhang Yimou was trying in his film Coming Home for the first time.
And when we finished the shooting work when we entered.The post production work the real nightmare came. I still remember we want to output a 5 minute trail for Beijing TV Festival.
But after a whole day's working. Until the computer crashed we just got 50 seconds trail. I was crazy. What can I do? This is a 30 episodes TV series. I just got 50 second so I asked our counselor because at that time.
因為實在是太難了張藝謀導演在他的電影『歸來』中第一次使用了4K。當我們結束了拍攝的工作並開始製作後期,噩夢才真的降臨在我們頭上,我仍然記得我們打算為北京電視節做一段5分鐘的試片。但是幸苦工作了一整天后，我們只輸出了50秒鐘，而且這個時候電腦癱瘓了，我快要急瘋了，我能夠做點什麼嗎？一部三十集的電視劇，我只輸出了50秒鐘的視頻，於是我去問我們的顧問。
Our technical support was RED, which is the biggest digital camera company in America. Their feedback was they use HP base station in America. But we didn't have any HP base station in China.
It was too expensive we can not even afford that. So we decided to assemble out black Apple and we tried. The outcome mode from dozens of combinations. After six months work we succeed. My TV series "The Ladies" became the first TV series which output real 4K resolution production.
我們的技術顧問來自美國最大的數字影像公司RED,他們告訴我們在美國他們使用的是HP基礎站。
但是在中國我們並沒有HP基礎站，它實在是太貴了我們根本買不起，所以我們決定自己組裝自己的設備，我們嘗試看數十種組合的輸出模式。經過了六個月之後我們成功了，我的『淑女之家』成為了首部
真正4K輸出的電視劇。
And I succeeded in selling it and with a very good performance on TV. So after this experience I learnt don't be afraid to take huge challenges.You can prepared to lose but conquer is with grit. The next story happened last year.I took an invitation from Bear Grylls, is there anyone know that?
You might thought I was crazy Yes, this man who stands on the top of the food chain.He almost eat everything, me too.
而且我成功把它賣給了電視臺並收穫了不錯的收視率,這次的經歷讓我學會了不要去害怕接受巨大的挑戰,你可以做好失敗的心理準備但是靠毅力去征服它。下一個故事就發生在去年，我接受了貝爾的邀請，有人知道嗎？你們可能會想我簡直瘋了。是的就是這個號稱站在食物鏈頂端的男人，他幾乎什麼都吃，我也是。
You might think I was crazy, yeah before that，I did no physical activities I have very bad body condition,I was afraid of a lots of things I was afraid of height and insects. I didn't even dare to take a roller coaster. But I almost took this invitation immediately. Because I truly understand if I lost this chance, I would never earn it back in the rest of my life. So I decided to take the adventure. During the 20 days adventure I caught rats,I caught mice, I ate insects...
你們或許覺得我瘋了，是的在那兒之前，我幾乎沒做過體育鍛煉，我的體能也不太好。我害怕很多事情，我恐高，而且害怕昆蟲。我甚至連過山車都不敢做，但是我幾乎馬上就接受了他的邀請。因為我知道如果我放棄這次機會，我這一輩子都不會再得到它了。所以我決定去冒一次險，在20天裡面，我抓過老鼠，吃過昆蟲。
But I didn't drink the urine, I almost cried every day in the first half half journey. And the most impressive moment was the day before the last day,I still remember the day our mission was to across a canyon just through a rope hanging between two cliffs. You can see from the picture but you can't see the width it's very long. And the standard posture is leaning your whole body onto the rope. And use one of your legs backside to hookup the rope with the ankle. And pull yourseif from one side to the other.
但是（還好）我沒有喝過尿液, 在前半段的旅程中我幾乎每天都在哭泣,印象最深刻的是倒數第二天。我記得那一天我們要通過懸掛在懸崖兩邊的繩子穿越一個峽谷，就是這張圖片，但是你們看不到寬度，很寬的標準的姿勢是將整個身體都懸掛在繩索上面，用一隻腳的腳踝纏繞住繩子，然後 用力將自己從一邊拉到另一邊去。
When it was my turn, Bear said Cecilia, are you really sure you want to try that. If you want to quit you can quit now because I know you can't make balance,you can't use your left arm. Because I was not lucky before that mission about two days ago. I hurt my left arm my nerves system got injured. And my little finle finger kept shaking for a whole day I can't even control that
輪到我的時候，貝爾對我說,你確定你要嘗試嗎？如果你想要退出這一項也是可以的因為我知道你無法保持身體平衡,你不能使用你的左胳膊。在那項任務的兩天前我不幸地將自己的左手弄傷了，而且傷到了神經系統，我的手指會不受控制地顫抖，我幾乎無法使用我的左手。
I barely can not use my left arm. So as a pessimist I have to imagine the worst consequence. Because it was a reality show. You know reality show is very dangerous if you can't perform 100% well. Sometiomes it means you will face savage criticism online later. And I might fall down again, or I hurt my left（right）arm as well. So I have been thinking about should I really have to try that. I think at least I won't die. So what? I decided to take that mission.
作為一名悲觀者，我不得不設想最壞的情況, 這可是一個真人秀節目。真人秀可能會是非常危險的，如果做不到百分百的完美，你可能會在網上受到網友的批評，我可能會再次，跌倒然後傷到我的右手，我問自己真的要嘗試嗎？，我想至少我死不了。那就不管那麼多了，接受挑戰
But I really lean my body onto that rope，It was far more scary than I thought. You can see from the picture because my posture as. My team member said my posture was so ugly, Because she said I was just like a dead caterpillar hanging there. I just kept my half body on one side, and left the rest part on the other side. And it's not the worst one. The worst was because my arm couldn't hold my upper body and my head. So I could not face up I could not see the end. So what should I do?
當時我當真的將我的身體掛在那根繩子上的時候,比我想象中的要難多了。 你們可以從照片中看到我的姿勢，我的團隊成員跟我說“你真的太醜了”，她說你看上去像一隻死掉的毛毛蟲，我身體的一半在這一邊，另一半在另一邊，這還不算最糟糕的，最糟糕的是我的手臂支撐不起我的上半身和腦袋，我抬不起頭去看終點在哪裡，我該怎麼辦？
I know that I have to think positive I also know that. sometimes being positive doesn't mean you just speak out some propagandas. You have to do something for real. But at that moment the only thing I could see was rock just 3 meters ahead nothing else. So I decided to set small targets , so I focus on that rock. There is someting magical happens when I really concentrated to that rock.
我知道我必須懷有積極的心態，我還知道積極並不是說簡簡單單地說出一些話,你必須積極地做出點什麼, 那個時候我只能看到前面3米處的一塊石頭.。 我決定設定一個小小的目標 專注在那塊石頭上，當我心裡面只想著那塊石頭的時候 神奇的事情發生了。
I forgot about the height. I forget about keeping balance， and even I forgot about the end.
I just remembered to focus on that and pull myself. Then I started seeking more targets in front of me, and any tiny became glittering images in front of me.After tried serveral times. I realized that I was so close to the end, and finally , I succeeded.
我忘記了懸崖的高度 也忘記了要去保持平衡, 我甚至忘記了終點， 我只記得自己要專注 然後不斷拉自己。然後我開始朝前尋找一個又一個目標，然後任何小的物體都成為了我前面閃閃發光的圖像，多次以後 我意識到我離終點已經很近了，最後我終於成功抵達。
So after that experience I learnt there is no shame to be loser. You just need to set small targets. and devote yourself. So these stories which happened to me shaped me as a positive pessimist， and until today I konw that I'm still a bad piano player, a bad painter and not a very successful producer.
But I love to be a positive pessimist. I know nothing can stop me being better. Thank you.
從那以後我知道了失敗並不可怕, 你需要設立小小的目標然後，全身心的投入.。 這些發生在我身上的故事塑造了我 成為一個積極的悲觀主義者，直到今天 我知道自己鋼琴彈得很差，畫也畫不好，也不是一個太棒的製作人，但是我喜歡成為一個積極的悲觀主義者，任何事情都不能阻擋我成為更好的人。
謝謝大家。
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