為什麼今天會想到寫這首歌,因為我捅了大簍子,而我的老父親,不得不又再一次要給我兜底。
第一次聽到《Father and Son》這首歌,是我上高中的時候,當時的愛爾蘭組合Boyzone推出的專輯《Said and Done》中收錄了這首歌。我很喜歡這首歌,年少的我喜歡的卻只是好聽的旋律,朗朗上口的歌詞,和歌手的嗓音,卻忽略了這首歌最大的價值,歌詞的深意。
隨著年紀的不斷增長,我也成家,我也有了自己的孩子,再一次聽到這首歌是在漫威的電影《銀河護衛隊2》中。那一瞬間,年少的記憶重新回到了腦中,但是這一次我卻被歌詞所震撼了。於是我瘋狂的去找尋各種版本,我想知道這首歌到底是誰創作的,我想知道這首歌的一切。於是,我聽到了Cat Stevens的原唱,聽到了Boyzone、Johnny Cash等人的翻唱,我還聽到了Ronan Keating和Yusuf的二重唱。
我不去評價孰優孰劣,因為每個人在唱這首歌,在聽這首歌的時候感覺都是不同的,不同時期也是不同的。我就是那個不懂事的孩子,總想著創出自己的一份天空,總想掙脫父親的束縛。而我的父親,就像歌中唱的那樣,會告訴我不對,慢一點,安穩一點。但是當我要去做的時候,他還是會讓我去。因為哪怕兒子在外面闖了再大的禍,父親也會站出來給兒子遮風擋雨。我們往往只能看到成功時候感慨當時的勇氣,我們看不到所要承擔的風險和挫折,但是我們的父親看得到。他就像一塊石頭一樣,在我們看來又臭又硬,但實際上穩重剛毅。我想到了小時候我父親抱著我出去兜風;我想到了上學時他即使再生氣也只會說我兩句;我想到了長大後,他支持我出去闖一闖;我想到了成家後,他對我滿懷期待的眼神。但是我讓他失望了,我做了他認為我做不來的事而且果然失敗了,灰溜溜的回到了他身邊,他又變成了那個頑固不化、脾氣古怪,誰都不說但實際上比誰都要愛我的父親。
當勇度為了星爵而犧牲後,星爵落寞的一個人聽著這首歌,眼中閃著淚光的時候。他心裡在想什麼?我不知道,我只知道我不想我的父親因為我而再繼續辛苦下去,我不想永遠生活在悔恨和痛苦中。父親的背影,將是我最糾結心中的痛。
父子之間的交心,也許是這個世界上最難的。但是我想和我的父親說:“爸爸,對不起!不孝兒錯了。兒子一定會努力的,不會讓你失望的!我愛你,爸爸!”
《Father and Son》- Ronan Keating ft. Yusuf
Father:
It's not time to make a change
Just relax
Take it easy
You're still young
That's your fault
There's so much you have to know
Find a girl settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me
I am old
But I'm happy
I was once like you are now
And I know that it's not easy
To become when you've found
Something going on
But take your time
Think a lot
Think of everthing you've got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not
Son:
How can I try to explain
When I do
It turns away again
And it's always been the same
Same old story
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen
Now there's a way and I know
That I have to go away
I know I have to go
Father:
It's not time to make a change
Just sit down
And take it slowly
You're still young
That's your fault
There's so much you have to go through
Find a girl settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me
I am old
But I'm happy
Son:
All the times that I've cried
Keeping all the things I knew inside
And it's hard
But it's harder to ignore it
If they were right
I'd agree
But it's them -- they know
Not me Now there's a way and I know
That I have to go away
I know I have to go
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