一句話瑜伽，第259期Briohny（上） :我意識到忽視自己是不可持續的。I've realized that ignoring myself is unsustainable.
20年前我在15歲的時候發現了瑜伽，那時的我沉迷派對，得了厭食症。When I found yoga 20 years ago at the age of 15,I was partying too hard and suffering from eating disorders.
練了幾年瑜伽後，我意識到我的瑜伽練習，都是為了麻痺或忽視自我懷疑的痛苦，以及不合群帶來的不舒服的感覺。After a couple of years of practicing yoga,I realized that the ways I was acting outs were all in an effort to numb or ignore the pain of self-doubt and the uncomfortable feelings of not fitting in.
我從來沒有覺得自己合群，中學和高中生活對我來說是非常痛苦的。I never felt like I fit in, middle and high- school were incredibly tough for me on that front.
但是，在過去的幾年裡，我意識到大部分的不安全感只存在於我的頭腦中。But, over the last few years, I've realized that most of those insecurities only live in my head.
因為我覺得自己沒有歸屬感，我是在孤立自己，實際上體現了我的孤獨感。And, because I thought and felt like I didn't belong,I was isolating myself and actually manifesting my loneliness.
我排斥交朋友以及和其他人交心。I alienated myself from making friends and real connections with other people.
即使現在這種想法還在，但我不再讓它們控制我的生活。Although the thoughts haven't gone away, I don't let them control my life anymore.
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